Welcome Back Blog

Haven't blogged consistently in over a year.  I am going to try and write more.  I like processing through writing.  I like having a recording of the ebb and flow of daily life.  I am opening my blog up to all my facebook friends.  I need the support as a mom.  I need to freely share as I screw up and as I succeed as a parent and person.  There is a vulnerability in opening the blog to so many.  What the hell.  Read. Relate. Judge.  Parenting is hard.  Sometimes it sucks.  Sometimes it brings out the best in me and sometimes it brings out the worst. I want to write it all.  I want to right about how grateful I am for my family.  I want to write that I think adoption is not an answer for many kids and families.  It is way harder than giving birth.  Every adoption story starts with lose.  The lose of a parent, a child, a family in order for another family to thrive. I want to write that our kids came to us in very different ways and I know each of them were meant to be ours, but there was a time I wasn't so sure.  I love being the mom to four strong-willed, vastly different, crazy, energetic, smart, kind kids.  And it drains me.  Drains me to the point that sometimes I forget.  Forget who I am outside of  m-o-m.  I hope that the entries sometimes make you laugh.  Sometimes make you empathize. Sometimes make you question. Sometimes make you drink.  So there you have it.  You are welcome to ride along or walk away. I want to always write my truth and I invite you to do the same.