This morning has been a hard morning. It is 8:50 am as I start to write this. It is now the calm after storm. I still feel the emotional weight of everything that happened this morning. When I think about how to describe what happened there are no specific instances to describe.
I think the pressure of Lori being in school full time, her starting a demanding new job, the shift in the family because of that, Kennedy having an awful second grade teacher, Kennedy not liking school for the first time ever and the fact we are in the midst of a very stressful adoption caused an explosion this morning. Everything became very heavy. We all carry it around to some degree. This morning we threw it all in the air.
Lori is stressed and not sure about her decisions with school and employment. This information sends me into a tail spin. I yell at Kennedy for getting soap all over the sink. Kennedy then throws a fit and cries. I cry and feel very, very guilty. Lori cries. Ben looks at all of us and asks if he can watch baseball. Poor Ben. I know he is anxious for K to arrive so he can have some backup in the testosterone department.
There are two good things about having a morning like this. First, everyone always feels a little better after a breakdown. Second, it can only get better from here.
1 comment:
I promise it will be worth it! Thinking of you.
Sue
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