Toddling Through The Adoption

When both kids were learning to walk it was agonizing to watch. The lack of balance, constant falling, swerving and barely missing table corners and the drunk like swagger that is certain to end with a fall. They would often become distracted with some toy or crumb on the floor and they would crawl again. Eventually they would remember there is a better way to move around and would hoist themselves to an upright position and be off again. Eventually their gait was strong and steady and the falls lessened.

The adoption comparisons just keep coming. Adoptions are agonizing to watch for family and friends and even more agonizing to be part of. The process lacks coordination, often stumbles, stalls out, falls and very rarely becomes strong and steady. The process most often feels extremely fragile. Learning to walk teaches a life skill that carries you the rest of your life. I know the life skills I have learned through this process will benefit me in the long term. I needed to learn patience and letting go of the need to control. I have learned those skills so I am ready for them to be home NOW and there has got to be something I can do to get them here.

We did receive an email from the director saying eveything was sent to her yesterday ( I was hoping it was already sent) and she will overnight it to us once she gets it. She states the paperwork does seem to be corrected but she will not know for sure until she receives the file. Hopefully, we will receive the file and be able to submit it to immigration next week. Is hope the same thing as denial??